Crying all the time...

Is it possible to change your chemical make up without medication? 

I need to do some research on this subject.

I'm way to emotional.  Most of the time for no good reason.  I cry when confronted...even if I'm completely in the right.  I cry during songs.  I cry during movies.  I cry when reading greeting cards.  I have even felt myself starting to tear up at work meetings.  (I fight those...I actually try to fight all of it)

I feel like I am a strong person.  I have been though some crap and came out of it ok for the most part.  I was in an abusive relationship and didn't cry this much.

Wikihow.com https://www.wikihow.com/Stop-Yourself-from-Crying says you should do the following to stop yourself from crying easily...

Method 1 Stopping Yourself from Crying with Physical Actions

• Focus on your breathing.
• Move your eyes to control your tears.
• Distract yourself with a physical movement.
• Relax your facial expression.
• Remove the lump in your throat.

It goes on to say that changing your focus helps.  Thinking of something funny.  Remind yourself that your strong (that would probably make me cry...when I'm feeling emotional I can't think of me personally...the crying always gets worse then). 
Blame your tears on something else.  I have actually tried that one..doesn't work for me. 
Dry your tears discreetly (also doesn't work...when I cry I FACE CRY...there is no hiding it)
Remove yourself from the situation.  Most of the time not possible.

There are several other methods listed in this article.  I might have to delve deeper into some research.  I really need to find a solution.  A way to stop this crap. 

I don't want to be emotional.  Its alike I feel everything sometimes but I really just want to feel nothing.  And its not like I care about everything and everyone...I literally don't. 

SO that also makes this more of a mystery. 

So basically I don't think there is much I can do.    I shall continue my search.

Can you offer some words of wisdom or advice? 

Emotions

I have been an emotional person for a long time. 

By emotional, I'm the one that cries when reading birthday cards, at movies, listening to music, the drop of a hat....you know..the regular stuff.

I haven't always been emotional.  I was married before and I didn't cry during the ceremony (I am getting RE-MARRIED this Friday!) or anytime even after the ceremony.  I've cried at other peoples weddings, just not the ones I've been in so far.  I've had two children...didn't cry after giving birth to them. 

This wedding is going to be different.   First of all...I cry at everything so I feel its inevitable.  Second, this is literally the love of my life, we have been together 14 years on the 11th.  Our local Mayor is preforming the ceremony..it will be very small...just us but I guarantee there will be tears.  Happy tears. 

Having said that....my emotional state has kinda become a family joke.  (which is another reason why I'm kinda glad we aren't have people at this wedding).  Anytime anything mushy happens everyone stops and looks at me...at which point I am usually tearing up.  Then they all laugh.  It was funny in the beginning but I don't find it funny anymore. 

I'm getting up there in age and menopause is probably right around the corner so that might play a factor in my increased emotional state.  But its annoying.  Sometimes I find myself having a conversation with a co-worker about NOTHING IMPORTANT and suddenly have to stop and compose myself.  Its embarrassing. 

I almost wish there was a pill to take to turn it off.  Although I probably wouldn't take it anyway.

I have no idea where this comes from...my mother was never emotional.  The only time I've seen her cry is if she isn't getting her way (I kid you NOT).  My father passed away, I couldn't stop crying...I don't remember her crying at all.  She sold a house she lived in for 20 years..no tears, I cried.  I've seen her at funerals, weddings, meeting her grandchildren...nothing. Sometimes I think she might be emotionally void.  Even then...wouldn't something invoke a tear? 

I cry to much...I'm to emotional.  I want it to stop.

We have been re-watching the Vampire Diaries (guilty pleasure...I LOVE VAMPIRES..hehehe)
In this show, the vampires can flip an internal switch and turn off their emotions...all of them at the same time.  I want to learn how to do that....

Do you think that's a thing?  LOL